Op : Shit dude, you hit me then.
Not saying I know how you feel, but I've had to become mature, really quickly too.
I think I know what you mean by finding someone as an anchor, I had someone at one stage, but I too, am letting things slip and she, in the end, got sick of my 'lack of love for living', and up and left.
I found myself just the other day thinking about how, having lost her go, and living on my own, just enabled me to let everything go.
And now my lack of enthusiasm is showing. I know i'm fucking up, and I know i could get out and make something of myself, but I just can't find the will to do it.